When you're growing up your schedule is regimented. School is Monday through Friday 7am-2pm, french horn lessons at 4pm, etc. Now that I'm an 'adult', every day varies tremendously.
I hung out with my boyfriend in the early morning, rushed home to get ready for school. Went to computational linear algebra and psychology. Got out at 3:30. Picked up a friend from the airport at 4. Hung out at my favorite coffee shop with him and ate. Went to an interview down at the strip at 6pm. Grabbed a beer at a fancy bar. Went to a mall to visit my best friend while she was working. Picked out a flowy dress for a photo shoot in the morning. Dropped off my friend Alex at his place. Drove over to hang out with another two great girlfriends. Smoked hookah, talked about travelling, and flattened out some details for a couple more photo shoots I have coming up. Got back home around 11pm. Ate some lentils and now cleaning up my mind by journaling and meditating. Next I'm going to organize everything for tomorrow and lather myself with coconut oil for the photo shoot I have in the morning.
All in all, this was a great day. I did have a mini panic attack in the morning about working again. I really need the money to travel though. School isn't too intensive right now, I'm taking four classes. Once I start working, I'll just need to cut back on hanging out with friends and organize my time better. I haven't made a vlog in a while (sorry), I'll put one together soon and I have a video I need to edit for a drinking board game. I have a lot of photo shoots coming up, but most of them only take up to 4 hours, 2 hours shooting, and 2 hours of travelling and prepping. So I'm not too worried about not being able to do them. I'll still take photos but I probably won't set up shoots. Modeling is a lot more fun than shooting at the moment. And I love talking photos, but I despise editing them. Which is strange because I love love love editing videos.
That was my ramble for today. I usually write this stuff in my journal, but I'm trying to post more in here. Thanks for reading. Much love.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Happy
I find myself writing less when I'm happy. That means my journal is full of a bunch of depressing shit.
I never write about 'why' I'm happy. When I'm sad, I like to analyze and fix what's wrong. You don't really do that when you're happy, you just accept it.
I currently feel really fulfilled at the moment and I want to record and remember why so when I'm sad, it'll help me get out of it faster.
1. I've been eating very healthy lately.
Mostly raw foods- veggies, fruits, nuts- and healthy cooked foods - quinoa, beans. Also drinking a lot of water. I stopped drinking coffee and that helped a lot with my headaches and mood swings. I still drink green tea though, in my opinion is a lot better for your body than coffee.
2. I have time to do what I love.
I am enjoying what I am studying in school. Yeah, I did do math homework the entire weekend, but I am not complaining one bit. When I'm not doing homework, I'm editing or drawing, and both make me super happy.
3. I have a very clean environment.
It helps that I like to clean, but having an organized room is the first step to having an organized mind and life. I can think a lot better when my room is clean. Same goes for my body.
4. I have a handful of very significant people in my life.
I have a loving boyfriend, two best friends, and a little sister I can talk to and see all the time. When I have a real problem, like what was going on last week, I have so many people to talk to it about and they can all help so much. They basically all tell me the same thing in a different way.They all also make me laugh in a different way. They are also all sooooooooooooo flippin different. But I love them all so incredibly much. They make my life journey a million times more meaningful.
5. Exercise and meditation.
I don't do these two things as much as a should. I stretch every day but I only get a real work out and meditation once every two or three days. But I've been dancing a lot lately and that helps. Both these things help calm me down. Meditation makes me think more clear and see the bigger picture. Exercise just makes me feel awesome and helps me sleep deeper. Speaking of meditation, isn't it weird that it's so hard to do the simplest thing: not think. I'm also going to throw hiking in here because it's a mixture of both. Being out in nature really helps connect me back to my roots, the earth.
6. Following my heart and pursuing my life goals.
My last post was a bucket list. And I believe the things I am doing now are on track with what I want out of my life. I'm on track for travelling, and there's no doubt that I won't fulfill my other goals. Following your heart makes you feel like you have a real purpose in life.
So that's it. The main chunks as to why I'm so happy. After writing this, I feel so grateful for everything I have in my life. & I want you to realize one thing that's not on my list: money. I'm wealthy in every other part of my life at the moment, except for my wallet. But that does not make me unhappy one bit. I'm doing what I love and I am able to eat healthy. The stress of not having the nicest car (my car is prettttty messed up) or the newest clothes doesn't bog me down. Having money is nice, but it's just a tool, so there's no reason to get all crazy over it.
I know this helped me a lot, and if it happens to help you, that'll make me happy too. Feel free to leave a comment.
:)
Tara
I never write about 'why' I'm happy. When I'm sad, I like to analyze and fix what's wrong. You don't really do that when you're happy, you just accept it.
I currently feel really fulfilled at the moment and I want to record and remember why so when I'm sad, it'll help me get out of it faster.
1. I've been eating very healthy lately.
Mostly raw foods- veggies, fruits, nuts- and healthy cooked foods - quinoa, beans. Also drinking a lot of water. I stopped drinking coffee and that helped a lot with my headaches and mood swings. I still drink green tea though, in my opinion is a lot better for your body than coffee.
2. I have time to do what I love.
I am enjoying what I am studying in school. Yeah, I did do math homework the entire weekend, but I am not complaining one bit. When I'm not doing homework, I'm editing or drawing, and both make me super happy.
3. I have a very clean environment.
It helps that I like to clean, but having an organized room is the first step to having an organized mind and life. I can think a lot better when my room is clean. Same goes for my body.
4. I have a handful of very significant people in my life.
I have a loving boyfriend, two best friends, and a little sister I can talk to and see all the time. When I have a real problem, like what was going on last week, I have so many people to talk to it about and they can all help so much. They basically all tell me the same thing in a different way.They all also make me laugh in a different way. They are also all sooooooooooooo flippin different. But I love them all so incredibly much. They make my life journey a million times more meaningful.
5. Exercise and meditation.
I don't do these two things as much as a should. I stretch every day but I only get a real work out and meditation once every two or three days. But I've been dancing a lot lately and that helps. Both these things help calm me down. Meditation makes me think more clear and see the bigger picture. Exercise just makes me feel awesome and helps me sleep deeper. Speaking of meditation, isn't it weird that it's so hard to do the simplest thing: not think. I'm also going to throw hiking in here because it's a mixture of both. Being out in nature really helps connect me back to my roots, the earth.
6. Following my heart and pursuing my life goals.
My last post was a bucket list. And I believe the things I am doing now are on track with what I want out of my life. I'm on track for travelling, and there's no doubt that I won't fulfill my other goals. Following your heart makes you feel like you have a real purpose in life.
So that's it. The main chunks as to why I'm so happy. After writing this, I feel so grateful for everything I have in my life. & I want you to realize one thing that's not on my list: money. I'm wealthy in every other part of my life at the moment, except for my wallet. But that does not make me unhappy one bit. I'm doing what I love and I am able to eat healthy. The stress of not having the nicest car (my car is prettttty messed up) or the newest clothes doesn't bog me down. Having money is nice, but it's just a tool, so there's no reason to get all crazy over it.
I know this helped me a lot, and if it happens to help you, that'll make me happy too. Feel free to leave a comment.
:)
Tara
BUCKET LIST
Things will constantly be added to the list. It might be very short in the beginning, but it will get longer as I move along with my life :)
1. Skydive.
I anticipate for this is happen soon, so it is on the top of my list. I think it is also sets the tone for an adventurous life.
2. See the Northern Lights.
Where I live, I can barely see the stars. Yet, I still gaze in awe of what's up above. Pictures can hardly capture the depth of stars, so I can't imagine seeing the Northern Lights in person. And I don't want to just 'see' them. I want to admire them for hours at a time, in order to say I've truly seen the Northern Lights.
3. Go on a Cruise.
This is a goal that I know is going to happen, but I'm going to be upset if I die and I don't get to go on a cruise so that's why it's on here. I want a lavish cruise, with drunk rich people, a dance floor, and lots of good food. Not to mention to go with a loved one and/or a group of friends is ideal. If I had to go alone, I'd still do it.
4. Backpack Europe, Asia, and South America.
Might as well put North America too, and Africa, and Australia. But Europe, Asia, and South America are my top three continents (I know right, entire continents haha) that come to mind when it comes to backpacking. I feel that a lot of my friends and family project this identity onto me that I might be too girly or I'll get kidnapped if I do these things, but I don't want to have what they think of me keep me bonded down. I think if I was a boy, it would be normal. My brother has been backpacking through Hawaii for the past year. And my dad has been backpacking through Europe and Asia for many many years. They think I'm more of a book smart person, but I can't wait to surprise them. I'm applying for my passport on Wednesday. Then I'll be booking my first backpacking trip for this August (2013). Not sure which continent to go to first though. I'm thinking visiting my brother first in Hawaii, and then flying over to the Philippines ;)
5. Design my own house.
This is one of my biggest life goals, in terms of planning, money, and time. This goal is the reason I'm going to college. A large chunk of my heart, mind, and soul goes to home design. A house is where you grow those things, you rest, and you learn. I believe a well designed house, with great architecture and interior design, will make any human thrive. I'm a huge organizer too, so it will put my mind to the ultimate test to design a house that is dynamic, with room for growth, loved ones, friends, a good time, a place to laugh, and a place to love. Travelling the world is an incentive to choose where I want this house to be. Also learning about myself and my lifestyle to see if I want a big house or a small house. Gahhh, so many variables go into this. I can't wait to collaborate and create my dream home with my future loved one(s).
1. Skydive.
I anticipate for this is happen soon, so it is on the top of my list. I think it is also sets the tone for an adventurous life.
2. See the Northern Lights.
Where I live, I can barely see the stars. Yet, I still gaze in awe of what's up above. Pictures can hardly capture the depth of stars, so I can't imagine seeing the Northern Lights in person. And I don't want to just 'see' them. I want to admire them for hours at a time, in order to say I've truly seen the Northern Lights.
3. Go on a Cruise.
This is a goal that I know is going to happen, but I'm going to be upset if I die and I don't get to go on a cruise so that's why it's on here. I want a lavish cruise, with drunk rich people, a dance floor, and lots of good food. Not to mention to go with a loved one and/or a group of friends is ideal. If I had to go alone, I'd still do it.
4. Backpack Europe, Asia, and South America.
Might as well put North America too, and Africa, and Australia. But Europe, Asia, and South America are my top three continents (I know right, entire continents haha) that come to mind when it comes to backpacking. I feel that a lot of my friends and family project this identity onto me that I might be too girly or I'll get kidnapped if I do these things, but I don't want to have what they think of me keep me bonded down. I think if I was a boy, it would be normal. My brother has been backpacking through Hawaii for the past year. And my dad has been backpacking through Europe and Asia for many many years. They think I'm more of a book smart person, but I can't wait to surprise them. I'm applying for my passport on Wednesday. Then I'll be booking my first backpacking trip for this August (2013). Not sure which continent to go to first though. I'm thinking visiting my brother first in Hawaii, and then flying over to the Philippines ;)
5. Design my own house.
This is one of my biggest life goals, in terms of planning, money, and time. This goal is the reason I'm going to college. A large chunk of my heart, mind, and soul goes to home design. A house is where you grow those things, you rest, and you learn. I believe a well designed house, with great architecture and interior design, will make any human thrive. I'm a huge organizer too, so it will put my mind to the ultimate test to design a house that is dynamic, with room for growth, loved ones, friends, a good time, a place to laugh, and a place to love. Travelling the world is an incentive to choose where I want this house to be. Also learning about myself and my lifestyle to see if I want a big house or a small house. Gahhh, so many variables go into this. I can't wait to collaborate and create my dream home with my future loved one(s).
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Just life, I guess
It's funny because somewhere inside of you, you know the right path for your life. For some reason, me and basically everyone else I know, battles this path and keeps themselves 'busy' to avoid what really needs to be lived. I'm sick of living that life, of keeping myself busy to avoid the fear of failing at what really matters.
You have to give up your fake dream first. So if you're on the same path as me and you know you're not living the right life you should be living, I hope this makes you feel better.
I'm dropping really crappy time consuming class, but in the process, I'm losing my scholarships. Gah. But I have to remind myself that I have 14 classes left, and every single one is hard as fuhhhhh, and I don't know if I can go full time anyways to receive those scholarships...
I don't know, I'm tired. I'm rambling. I've had a lot to think about today. I just know I'm on to a more meaningful life.
Why is it so hard dropping the things that don't matter? For the fear that our fake plan won't work out? By doing what your heart says, you can stop wasting so much time.
So cheers to me, cheers to you. I hope this helps.
You have to give up your fake dream first. So if you're on the same path as me and you know you're not living the right life you should be living, I hope this makes you feel better.
I'm dropping really crappy time consuming class, but in the process, I'm losing my scholarships. Gah. But I have to remind myself that I have 14 classes left, and every single one is hard as fuhhhhh, and I don't know if I can go full time anyways to receive those scholarships...
I don't know, I'm tired. I'm rambling. I've had a lot to think about today. I just know I'm on to a more meaningful life.
Why is it so hard dropping the things that don't matter? For the fear that our fake plan won't work out? By doing what your heart says, you can stop wasting so much time.
So cheers to me, cheers to you. I hope this helps.
Friday, February 15, 2013
Saturday, February 2, 2013
vegan in vegas
Imagine a life where you feel energized throughout the day. It's easy to go to bed in the morning. Meal time is always enjoyable. You feel great after a meal, not sloggish and bleh. Best part about it, for a girl like me, is the absence of mood swings.
It's called veganism. I wouldn't even call it veganism, because people have a negative association with vegans. They think they're some hardcore malnourished hippies trying to save the animals. They think vegans are super strict with their diet. Most are. I'm a loose definition of a vegan.
I eat raw, healthy foods because it makes me feel great consistently.
People see, but it doesn't fully register, that food is the fuel that works your body. Healthy foods allow for clearer thinking and realizations and translates into meaningful actions that ultimately affect your life.
It sounds like a far stretch to those who don't eat clean foods, but for those health nuts out there, you know what I'm talking about.
So, my diet consists of various types of beans, nuts, fruit, lots of veggies, quinoa, and green tea, sometimes with honey. About once a week I eat fish.
I'm not doing this to save the animals, although it is a plus. I do it because it's my health and it's worth it.
It's called veganism. I wouldn't even call it veganism, because people have a negative association with vegans. They think they're some hardcore malnourished hippies trying to save the animals. They think vegans are super strict with their diet. Most are. I'm a loose definition of a vegan.
I eat raw, healthy foods because it makes me feel great consistently.
People see, but it doesn't fully register, that food is the fuel that works your body. Healthy foods allow for clearer thinking and realizations and translates into meaningful actions that ultimately affect your life.
It sounds like a far stretch to those who don't eat clean foods, but for those health nuts out there, you know what I'm talking about.
So, my diet consists of various types of beans, nuts, fruit, lots of veggies, quinoa, and green tea, sometimes with honey. About once a week I eat fish.
I'm not doing this to save the animals, although it is a plus. I do it because it's my health and it's worth it.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
WHOA BABY!
I just made a new vlog and I used Cherub's song 'Doses and Mimosas'. If you've never heard the song before take a second and watch my video, it's like killing two birds with one stone!
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